idonttalkebonic

idonttalkebonic @ 2008-01-19T15:01:00

2008-01-19T21:02:06Z

-the weekend all alone in this house- i didnt sleep till 7:30am- jesus christ i'm so tired i cant move.

-i want to see 27 dresses

-i'm not interested in being accused of playing some stupid game that i wasnt trying to play in the first place... so, i'm just not going to play anything at all. it's not like everything works in one way.

idonttalkebonic @ 2008-01-10T10:18:00

2008-01-10T16:35:26Z

it's entirely too early in the morning
SO FAR:
-I've battled a 6 yr old
-Watched the Backyardigans, Blues Clues, Wonderpets, Dora & Diego
-Played cars with Zachary
-Fallen; but not the bad kind (this only makes sense to me?)

i'm NEVER getting Kylie ready for school ever again- HOLY SHIT- that was the worst time of my life
i've only had 2 hours of sleep- i'm not prepared for this

i watched High Fidelity twice yesterday and maybe i will once more today.

i want everything that i've pushed away and that has elluded me for YEARS... and i cant get that Landon Pigg song out of my head, all day. it's a Zale's commercial in my head.

-i miss you
-i love you

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-12-28T16:54:00

2007-12-28T21:55:27Z

1. mom & dad wont quit lecturing me today- it's tiring
2. i had a really long conversation with gary today- i was crying because of said lecture and he's the one person i could always talk to about this stuff so i called him and it wasnt so bad? i'm glad we can be friends now... as for his girlfriend- she TOTALLY made up lies to him about me! something about how i came to one of her parties last summer and was sooooo totally drunk that she had to kick me out! which, as falen can vouch for me, the ONLY party of hers i ever went to was with hollywood handgrenade and WAB and, yeah- thomas and i broke one of her doors, but i DID NOT get kicked out and no one even said anything to us at all! IN FACT- i left because joe from WAB was telling me he loved me again and i was uncomfortable and left on my own accord! WOW!!! what a piece of fiction that was brit brit!
3. i'm happy because i'm thinking about stardust and the next time i get to watch it- im happy thinking about it, because in real life i'm happy- not happppy.. but happy. (does this make sense????)
4. conversations that are (un)cleverly disguised questions other people want to ask me but dont are irritating. im not real clear on whether it was or not- but that reasoning when it was called out wasnt very convincing- if anyone wants to know something- come to me! i'll tell you. i could care less. yes, i hold grudges. it all amounts to trust and it all comes back to trust/lack of trust.
5. i want to hang out with my bubby more often. he really can be nice. and this week it's become so clear that he wants my approval. cory stanton- my first love/kiss lives next door to him- how wierd. when i was ten i thought i'd marry him. but people that smoke a lot of pot have never really been that cool in my book. i mean, to each their own. and if my friends want to do that- cool. their choice. but i'll never date anyone that smokes pot often. or at all actually. i wouldnt want to be uncomfortable about someone i'm dating and i really shouldnt have to be. and i would think that if someone cared about me they really wouldnt mind that i didnt want them to anyway. right? maybe im unreasonable. who knows. my opinion on the matter will NEVER change.
6. im rambling.
7. time to talk to mom about jeepers! we'll see how this goes! i'm betting this will be round 2 of friday fight fest! nice.

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-12-28T00:17:00

2007-12-28T05:11:20Z

my feet are cold
i have a horrible cold
my heart is racing a mile a minute because i'm nervous about tomorrow
im going back home tomorrow- which i'm not looking forward to the 2 hour car ride with my dad- i still didnt talk to them about the jeep and i dont know that i'll have time tomorrow. stressful.
this is the time that i NEED to start making decisions.
my resolutions:
-drink less (i know give up drinking is unrealistic- and i dont really want to do that- but less is attainable)
-exercise- i like sleep way too much but after my family pointing out to me exactly how huge i am this entire break i think i should get rid of the "inch to pinch" as my uncle, dad, mom and dad's friends so nicely put it
-i'm THINKING of TRYING OUT giving up meat... yes, even bacon. i dont know that i can do it... everyone says it is easy- but i really love burgers, in fact, i want one right now and if mcdonalds were open 24 hours here i would go get one right now... this will be my hardest resolution but i think ultimately a good thing
-i'd like try giving trust a whirl. i dont trust anyone, and not for good reasons either- well, some are good reasons- but i need more trust in my life, because soon after i stop talking to everyone i dont trust i wont have anyone left.

good thing i have a couple days to eat, drink, and be merry!

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-12-21T14:42:00

2007-12-21T20:47:12Z

i've lost a lot of faith in nearly everyone i hold dear

i'm kind of glad i'm going home, that's how put off i am right now. i choose my family over this. at least i know why they treat me that way.

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-12-20T13:49:00

2007-12-20T19:55:52Z

-gary's sending me more & more messages lately. i'm unhappy with it. i'm over it. i'm over him. i've moved on. yet... it's just frustrating

-i cant help but feel unhappy bc of you. i have a hard time trusting people anyway, and you broke it. i'm over this too.

-going home for the holidays- this should be miserable or relaxing- cant decide. i'll just hang out with Ryan the whole time- i'll pick my 2yr old nephew over the adults in my family any day- what has my life come to? hopefully, fun people will be in Linton

-i'm about to pick up Kylie and i'm aggitated about it to say the least

-LOVE LOVE L.O.V.E. (not to be confused with "love love love...")

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-12-12T19:28:00

2007-12-13T01:36:45Z

2007 AWARDS

1) DRINKING BUDDIES OF THE YEAR:
Lauren & Rachel

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend) -
Cassandra

3) NEWCOMER AWARD - NEWEST FRIEND?
Rachel

3) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR?
personal.

4) LOW POINT OF THE YEAR?
drinking a 5th of jack daniels and going insane

5) BEST HOLIDAY?
last valentine's was really good

6) YOUR SONG FOR 2007?
the same ol' same old

7) MOVIE FOR 2007?
hairspray, stardust, and mr. magorium's wonder emporium

8)Who did you spend valentines day with?
Dinner: Gary
Music & Lyrics with Gary, Thomas & Falen

11) BEST RELATIONSHIP?
all of them were bad

12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
bored

13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
favorite: Nagasaki

14) BOOK OF THE YEAR?
No One Belongs Here More Then You by Miranda July

15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
finally breaking up with Gary for real

16) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
taking it easy & getting things together & getting over dumb situations

17) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK.
kissing

18) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
ROCK OF LOVE.

19) MOST LOYAL FRIENDS?
Lauren & Clayton

20) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
Finally being single and not dying from it

DA-YUM MSN

2007-11-29T16:34:42Z

My horoscope today:

"You are apt to be feeling extra sensitive and sensual today, Rachel. Your sense of touch and the emotions that it conjures within you are apt to be quite potent today. You are probably going to be reminded of a scene from long ago. Hold tight to memories that bring you joy, but try not to let them take away from where you are and what you are doing at the current moment.
You may wish, for certain reasons, to stay firmly in control of your feelings, but your wishes aren't likely to materialize. You enjoy the iron grip you usually have over your emotions. However, you may find that despite your best intentions, someone close to you knows exactly how much you really feel for them. They know your heart is really a raging inferno!"

MSN how do you know me so well?? i fear you're the only one. haha.

You are probably going to be reminded of a scene from long ago. this was definately last night- and it wasnt good- i dont like to be reminded of the way gary's acted before. it was definately an adverse reaction.

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-29T08:45:00

2007-11-29T14:47:57Z

my eyes hurt
my throat hurts
my chest hurts
my lungs hurt
my head hurts
my heart hurts

did i do something wrong here? probably????
i'm not much of a risk-taker but i'm more than happy to make a fool of myself when it comes to getting what i want.

everything's topsy-turvy and i'm contemplating leaving soon (like i have much of a choice). my life is spinning out of control. i need new scenery. new people. a new life. although, a familiar face or two would be welcome.

where do people come up with these?

2007-11-28T15:43:23Z

1. Name and middle name? Rachel Nicole
2. What holiday is your birthday closest to? Fourth of July
3. Favorite flavored Pie? pecan
4. Does it bother you when someone says they will call you and they don't? sometimes- depends on how much i anticipate the phone call i suppose
5. Are you allergic to anything? bees & poisen ivy
6. Is there something special you want for Christmas? anything would be nice- but i fear it's coal for me this year.
7. When was the last time you went swimming? Cincinnati- in July
8. Do you like chesecake? for the love of god- yes
9. How many of the U.S. states have you lived in? three- KY, IN, IL
10. Have you traveled outside the country? not yet
11. Do you keep a planner or calendar with daily events? no, but i should
12. Does anyone like you? at least that's what he tells me
13. Do you have any strange pets? i had the best dwarf hamster- roseanne arnold- but she bit the dust a couple weeks ago
14. What is your dream car? i dont know- a new one
15. What did you do today? woke up on Kevin's hardwood floor- went home- slept for a few- showered- went to work
16. Are you bipolar? probably
17. What is the main ringtone on your cell? dont stop believin'- journey
18. Where would you want to go on a first date? din & movie- the usual
19. When is the last time you were hugged? this morning
20. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally? yes
21. How important is romance? make/break the relationship
22. Have you ever bungee jumped? no, but i'd love to
23. Have you ever been white water rafting? nope
24. Has anyone ten years older than you ever hit on you? yes, ugh.
25. Are you a cavity free kid? yes- at the time
26. Are you an extreme racist? only is jest
27. What song are you listening to right now? Kevin's ringtone (text message)
28. What is your favorite song at the moment? ALWAYS: Into the Mystic- Van Morrison
29. What was the last movie you watched? Delta Farce w/ Clayton
30. Where was the last house you went besides your house? Kevin's
31. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property? yes
32. Have you ever been punched? no
33. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? shoes, eyes
34. Can you open a beer bottle with a body part other than your hand? why would i ever want to do that?
35. What do you usually order from Olive Garden? chicken con broccoli
36. Say something totally random about yourself? my eyeballs are killing me
37. Do you have an mp3 player? no, i dont buy into that whole thing
38. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? Christina Ricci one time- which is weird since i'm a whole foot taller and have red hair and freckles...
39. Do you have freckles? TONS!
40. Are you comfortable with your height? i'm taller than everyone- but i dont care, i'll still wear heels
41. Do you love someone? no
42. How tall are you? 5'9"
43. Do you speak any other language other than English? i studied spanish for 4.5 yrs and cant speak a word
44. How do you like your steak cooked? medium rare- but more on the rare side
45. Has anyone you were really close to passed away? yes
46. Do you watch MTV? not unless i'm w someone that is- 100% truth
47. What is something that really annoys you? secrets
48. Have you talked with your parents about the birds and the bees? my dad caught me with birth control when i was 14 and told me not to embarrass the family by being a whore- does that count?
49. What is the best thing in your refrigerator right now? veggie dip & eggs
50. When is the last time you had professional pictures taken? HS
51. Do you have a crush on someone? yes
52. Does that person like you back? yes
53. Do you drive when you go on long trips? yes
54. Whats the latest you have ever stayed out? well past when the sun came up
55. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die? yes
56. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room? yes
57. Have you broken a bone or had stitches? broken: arm - stiches: stomach, forehead, arm, eye, leg, hand
58. Anyone on your mind right now? you are always on my miiiind, you are always on my mind.
59. What color is your hair? red
60. What did you do last night? cleaned, helped kevin, cleaned some more, spend night w/ Kevin

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-27T10:40:00

2007-11-27T16:42:19Z

Aunt Linda & Uncle Sherman- please take me in. Florida here i come

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-26T10:42:00

2007-11-26T16:53:17Z

1. What is the status of you and the last person you held hands with?
hm. we have sex and say we like each other. further than that, i dont know.

2. What's bothering you right now?
my eyeballs- note to self: dont sleep in contacts

3. Do you miss your first love?
no

4. When did you last cry?
last night

5. Who do you hate?
meh. i'm too tired to hate anyone. resent is more my thing.

6. What do you want in your life right now?
help.

7. Are you happy?
depends on the day

9. What do you smell like?
shampoo & j-ho

10. Drinking?
coffee

11. What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?
tons of blankets & someone to cuddle with

12. If you could change something in your life, what would it be?
everyone wouldnt be so mad and fed up with me.

13. What do you wear to bed?
maybe some pj bottoms every now and then

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
i make everything complicated- but not on purpose, i'm just difficult natured

15. How do you feel about the person you got this survey from?
bf

16. Are you friends with all of your exes?
a few of them

17. What's something you wish you could understand better?
myself.

18. What did you do last weekend?
this past weekend: my drinking problem hit an all time high- made the decision to quit drinking- slept all day saturday, watched a movie with clayton- sunday went to dinner and a movie with alex, went to laurens, went to rachel's, went to kevin's

19. Who do you miss?
myself.

20. Who is the last girl and boy you hugged?
girl: rachel P
boy: Kevin

21. Are you scared of snakes?
absolutely

22. Who was the last person you went somewhere with?
alex

23. What was the last text message you got?
"you should go get enough bacon for all your co-workers and have a National Bacon Day party"

24. Have you kissed anyone on your myspace top friends?
Lauren, Cassandra, Rachel, and Derek

25. Are you still with your first love?
no

26. Whose house did you go to last night?
Lauren's, Rachel's, Kevin's- in that order

27. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
mom or gary

29. Are you bored?
overwhelmed

30. What is the last movie you watched?
3:10 to Yuma

31. Name three drinks you regularly drink.
diet coke, water, jack daniels(not anymore!)

32. What are you excited about?
natta

33. Do you want something or someone you can't have?
yes

34. Who was last to slap your butt?
Kevin?

36. What's on your mind right now?
people keep walking in & out of my office like it's their job- and a conversation i had this morning- and feelings i've been surpressing for a while now- i want to sleep.

37. Who was the last person to make you cry?
no one in particular- situations mostly

38. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "C".
Cassandra

39. Do you care what others think about you?
yes

40. What are you self-concious about? Why?
looks & being liked- i dont know

41. Do you trust people easily?
not at all

42. Do you think you will be married in 10 months?
no...

43. Will you kiss the last person you kissed again?
99% likely

44. What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
absolutely nothing- i'm scared about it actually

45. Who was the last person you called?
Kevin

46. Who was the last missed call?
Clayton

48. Do you plan on moving within the next year?
i've been thinking about it. florida's looking awfully nice.

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-26T10:27:00

2007-11-26T16:29:27Z

i feel lonely.
like everyone's left me in the dust.

where's my penguin? my significant other- boy or friend- doesnt matter.

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-25T20:34:00

2007-11-26T02:35:59Z

awful weekend.
i hate talks.
i hate facing all the bad shit i do.
i hate being told that i'm a bad person.
i hate facing my problems.

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-22T18:35:00

2007-11-23T00:40:10Z

happy thanksgiving

the best thing that's ever happened to me:
i went to my truck today (i'm at lauren's) and on top of my truck was a brown paper bag- in it: "Know-It-All" by A.J. Jacobs, twizzlers, reese's pieces, and life savers gummies. and a note: "rachel, i thought you might be a little bummed today, so i thought this would cheer you up. - Clayton"

that's the nicest thing anyone's ever done for me. ever. period. wow.
more than that- all of those things were things that i love or wanted- someone out there actually listens to what i say even if it's nonsense. i'm happy beyond belief.

i love these things lauren

2007-11-21T17:41:09Z

1. Honestly what color is your shirt?
black

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?
picking up my truck in 30 minutes & state farm crap

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?
working

4. Honestly, do you like Britney Spears?
yes, i just wish brit brit werent so white trash now

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?
what do you consider bad? i've thought plenty of bad things about people...

7.Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?
i rarely watch tv

8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
jeff @ the car place

9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?
nah

10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time?
lying & fake people

11. Honestly, do you bite your nails?
no- if there's a rough edge i will if i'm not around clippers

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?
i dont have that much self-control

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment?
yes i really do

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
always

15. Honestly, do you have a friend that you really don’t like?
why would i even do that?

17. Honestly, do you like/love anyone?
like- yes
love- never

Mad section!

1. What do you do when you get mad?
yell and make no sense- push people away- spend time with myself and then get over it in 5 minutes

2. What's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
said mean things- that's about it...

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
yes

Crying Section

1. Honestly, when's the last time you cried?
monday

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes

3. Do certain songs make you cry?
YES

4. What usually makes you cry?
my girl(the movie), confusing situations, my family, change

5. What do you do when you're scared?
quit breathing & hold on to something or someone

1. Is there someone right now that could do something to make you happy?
yes

2. Who can make you happy?
cassandra, clayton, lauren, kjljklj, rachel

3. Can being with your friends make you happy?
always always always

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-21T08:32:00

2007-11-21T15:43:04Z

i had to force myself to roll out of bed today- there has to be a way to trick myself into liking mornings and being able to get up and get ready without feeling like death.

A complete stranger took me to work today as i dropped my vehicle off at a shop today and they do drop-off and pick-ups. it reminds me (like i had really forgotten) just how awkward i am. $200 later- my vehicle will be fixed and finally fucking driveable. this once-a-month $200 car-repair biz is really starting to get annoying. THANKS MOM & DAD FOR THE GREAT VEHICLE! which this is probably my fault but i need to blame someone- i cant right take the fall myself now can i??

it's thanksgiving and i have no family. i really feel like i dont. i used to think the world of my mom- like she set the stars in the sky and hung the moon- like she could do anything and, more importantly, would do anything for me. now? not so much. i guess it was stupid to think any one person could do so much.

life is below par right now- but i'm sure it will pick up- it always does.

it's funny how you just know something or can just tell how someone feels; yet, they never come out and say it; not to you- which would be the easier thing to do. i wont feel bad about it, i'll keep pursuing it and you'll be bitter and resentful and all because you never said anything about it. but hey at least it's easier than getting up the courage to say something about it!!! congrats on sticking to your guns!

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-20T10:41:00

2007-11-20T16:42:26Z

i need a new place and a new family
place: CHEAP/FREE OR SEXUAL FAVORS
family: LOOOVING

help would be greatly appreciated on both items; thanks!

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-16T10:03:00

2007-11-16T16:22:48Z

i'm in such a good mood today-
i've been feeling like shit for the past week; so i'm relieved

but tomorrow when i drop the bomb on my mother she is going to KILL me so i'll enjoy it while i can!

I CANT STOP SMILING

YES, I'M UPSET AND I'M NOT AFRAID TO ADMIT THIS TIME

2007-11-14T15:00:45Z

i feel so disconnected from... everything. i feel forgotten and/or pushed aside. who cares? i feel lonely. now that falen has stated it, i'm thinking about it more and more- everyone has that someone, i'm nobody's someone. i almost cried last night for the first time in the longest time. i was too tired to cry though, so i just slept instead; and that was probably a better thing to do anyway.

when it feels like this, i just want to push people away and constantly be alone if that is how i'm made to feel.

i wasnt there. i didnt contribute anything. i wont be there in the future. no worries.

and i won- is that why you're bitter?

the new twist on the twist

2007-11-12T16:18:25Z

things i know(sort-of):
-that i love Lauren Moats; fancypants is the Cadillac of friends and i really lucked out.
- studying is hard to do when my mind is a ba-jillion other places
-i like Kevin a lot more than i would like to let on and waking up curled up to gummy bear is the best(more like second best [to fancypants] really- but it's still nice)
-i have 19 voicemails and dont want to check them
-i miss Cassandra so much. i wish occasionally Dallas would let us have her back. and that she would actually call sometimes instead of me always being the one to call.
-i feel a certain strain & tension- people should just say how they feel instead of keeping it secret. i'm not a retard, i do have intuition and can tell. it's just going to get worse.
-family dinner with Lauren, Derek & Alex tonight: EXCITEMENT!!
-i told Gary's girlfriend and all she said was "well, thanks for letting me know, i guess." That's it?!?! PLEASE! Not another girl falling for this! for the love of god, grow a backbone and move on because you deserve so much more.
-i have a huge bruise on my inner thigh, how the hell did that happen? and it's inner/back thigh- so im really not sure how it happened. what a strange location.
-Rachel P, I wuv you! and you're the only person i say i luv you to when i get off the phone FYI
-i get paid thursday! must grocery shop first thing!
-calll mom and beg for her forgiveness and ask her to fix everything.
-dont know what i'm going to do about living situation in a month and a half- anyone want a roommate?

HOLY LORD GOD ALMIGHTY

2007-11-10T20:42:57Z

so, i logged on to myspace and unsuspectingly checked my messages to find this nice message from gary. jesus fucking christ. should i forward this to his girlfriend?? i dont want anyone to fall for the same shit i did.

Message with my reply:

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yeah... you probably should have. maybe you should tell some of these things to your girlfriend. dick.

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Victor Ward
Date: Nov 9, 2007 7:29 PM

look i think of you every day and no matter if you hate me or not there is no way i ever could hate you, it sucks seeing your face and hearing all of the shit that i do, my life is so weird wo you, i think this is just going to get deleted or i wont get a response but at least maybe you will read this, i really wwish that things would have worked theway i wanted and hoped for,i saw you the other day on the lloyd and almost cried, look i know you were the one for me but i have a feeling its too late,i felt you took me for granted and all the stuff you did w we broke up killed me bc i realized you are or were soooo sweet and a amazing girl,i never wanted to loos you and i did,you will never leave my head w your smile laugh kisses smell you will never leave me,im sorry to take your time,OK for now,soorry if you still hate me after this,you will always be my cp.....and your chest piece i was going to get to old six shooters w a bull skull in the middle on my chest but i guess not any more....once again please just smile for me once even if a memory of us w we were happy......sorry i should have left it be

me so bored

2007-11-09T20:07:02Z

Are you smiling?
i'm not frowning

When is the last time you met someone new?
i meet lots of new people every weekend- i just never rememeber them- they must not be too interesting

What is irritating you now?
that our bitch receptionist is being a bitch and i have to be Pam again

When did you last eat pizza?
saturday

Do you drink beer?
no

Do you have any friends who are famous?
Falen from HOT 96- hehe

Are you any good at poker?
mario & luigi poker

What do you want?
sex & money

Are you tired?
i drink coffee like water- i'm never tired

Last spoken words you heard?
Paul @ Commercial Fire Underwriting asking for a call back regarding a client

Have you ever kissed anyone named John?
creepy. ew.

What is your favorite thing in your room?
MY BED & my books

Pepsi or Coke?
coke

Did you ever throw up?
yes, yes i have

Did you ever throw up while kissing someone?
NO

Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
yes

Taco Bell or McDonald's?
McDonalds- but who can resist a tasy taco every now and then

Are you restless?
most of the time

Is your computer a laptop?
PC

Are you allowed to stay up later than 10 pm on a weeknight?
i always do, i always do

How many myspace views do you have?
unsure

Do you believe dreams come true?
yes, and fairytales too

Last song you heard?
'At Your Funeral'- Saves the Day

Do you like Batman?
sure

Who is in the room with you?
absolutely no one

What are you wearing on your feet?
heels

What is your favorite pair of shoes?
black slip-ons or my old chucks are starting to make a reappearance in my wardrobe

Who was the last person you told you loved them?
Rachel

What was the last thing you ate?
southwest Chicken Salad

What were you doing before this?
filing/emailing/scanning/talking/faxing

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
pen

What instant messaging service do you use?
AIM when i do decide to IM

What is your favorite website?
that's like choosing my favorite star in the sky!

Who's house did you go to last night?
i stayed home

What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
jeans- unless i'm at home- then nothing

What is the last movie you watched?
Kingdom

What do you currently hear right now?
silence- i'm at the office- i can hear the murmur of Kasey's voice in

When did you last buy a new pair of pants?
i dont know- it's been a while- August?

When did you last take a shower?
7am

Ever been to QuizPox.com?
never

Where is your mom?
at her house i imagine

Where do you sleep?
in my bed most of the time, if not there- Lauren's bed.- i hate not sleeping in my own bed-it's so uncomfortable.

Where do you shop the most?
Target/Walmart

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Charlotte Russe

Where was your default MySpace picture taken?
in emily's apartment

Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
attraction i suppose

Are you happy with where you are?
it's better than Linton

Is cheating ever ok?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
Never again

Have you ever talked about marriage with someone before?
yes

Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
i dont- but i'd like to meet someone that doesnt think it's cheesy so i can

Do you believe that you can change someone?
why would you want to?

Would you ever consider getting engaged or married right now?
at this exact moment: no
at this stage in my life: perhaps, i guess something like that depends on the relationship/persons involved i guess.

SIX LASTS:

Last beverage:
Iced Fudge Ripple from Coffee Beanery

Last phone call:
last personal phone call: Lauren

Last instant message:
---

Last e-mail:
cassandra

Last text message:
Kevin

FIVE YOU EVERS:

Dated someone twice:
yessum

Kissed someone & regretted it?:
no

Lost someone special?:
too many

Been depressed:
i get down sometimes- but i always pick myself up

Gone skinny dipping:
yes!! something that should happen more often

PHAT

2007-11-08T21:48:05Z

it's not just my mom these days- my horoscope is taking joy in telling me i'm fat now...

TODAYS: "Have you been overindulging in food and drink lately, Rachel? If so, you may feel the effects of it today. You might react in an unusual way - namely, by going out and exercising too much as well! This is a day when you should kick back, go easy on the food, and relax a little. And if you want to exercise, go for yoga and Tai Chi instead of aerobics and running. Try it! It works!"

TOMORROWS: "Be careful not to over indulge, Rachel. Even if you're positive that box of donuts is calling your name, better to resist. Treating yourself is a good thing from time to time. However, doing so all the time, especially when the goodie isn't particularly healthy for you IS overindulgence - and you need to exercise control. Too much of a good thing can hurt you in the long run, so walk away when the temptation hits you today."

THANKS MSN!!

idonttalkebonic @ 2007-11-08T13:28:00

2007-11-08T19:30:26Z

i just had lunch with Rachel- and now she's leaving- i'm sad. it's only for a couple days, but still. i'm excited she's bringing her momma back with her though.
let me be the first to say, WOW- now there's a girl that will do anything for a friend. honestly- one of the B.E.S.T. people i know. period.

also, i'm on hold with fifth-third bank for work and their 'elevator music' just played Wild Cherry's "Play That Funky Music White Boy"-- this is hilarious to me for some silly reason